This is my first post for the year 2010. And, Im burning hot and flaming with anger. I'm over it now but whenever I remember it, it still hurts.
I'm talking about our IT movie project in school. I made the script. I helped in taking the videos. I edited the movie. And, I got 3 groupmates out. I'm tired. If you could only see my eyebags getting darker, my pimples strolled on my face, voice so husky and body so heavy and haggard. We are 13 in our group and I could only count in one hand those who really helped and did their part.
Honestly, Im not good in controlling my anger. I got angry with my groupmates.Mostly, all of them. They don't care. They have lots of excuses. Because they don't know this, don't know that, pc had a virus and all other reasons which can easily be solved if they really have the will to solve it. Last Friday, January 22, I got angry that I ignore all of my groupmates. I let them hear things behind their backs. I've told very harsh words. I'm mean and I mean it. Ok. But, don't they take it as a challenge? I mean all of the things I've said maybe harsh but it's the truth. It's what I feel and think about them. Don't they get my point? All I wanted is to let them understand that I'm doing it, saying it for them to work. Sometimes insults really hurts especially when its true. When its not, they should stand up and work and prove the people that "Hey!I'm not like what you think of." What they did, They just proved that I'm right. I thought they would I understand because they are intelligent. Oh God, please... widen your minds.
Now, they think I'm being hypocrite. Honestly, all people are. All are forced to please the people they don't like. So get up, get a mirror and get a life! I've read all what you posted. Though there were no names mentioned, I know they're talking about me. "I hate those selfish people...soo FUCKING PLASTIC" I accept the word plastic. So, not new. All people are. Don't exclude yourself. But that bad word?? No. So not accepted. My mom and dad didn't even mentioned that word. And selfish?? Who's selfish now when you only think of yourself not minding that I'm tired. If you really wanted to help, you'd do all things. I've also heard that they're afraid to approach me? Oh, c'mon! I'm not going to eat you. You don't even look delicious. LOL
Ok, I've cried about this matter already. I don't want to talk about this anymore nor talk to them. And to my friend, who had become bitch, thanks for showing your true colors. Its not too late to show it. At least, Now I'm aware who's true and who's not. I don't expect to see you act like before 'coz I also don't expect our friendship to be like before.
I'm graduating. I don't want any grudges left when I leave highschool.So, I'll say "Sorry" here.
